Early in the morning baby told me that maybe he need to take back his streamyx account
Gosh..Which mean I'm not going to online again until i get my own.
I dint blame to anyone,coz I know I'm useless!!
YES I AM SO USELESS!!
It's been a long time dint fall in "depression"
What I can say about me is I'm not a human being.
I dont have my own career,I dont have my own car.
I'm 20 after this coming birthday,I dont even know what's the aim i survive this 20years
Just feel like wanna kill myself.
Why I born in a poor family?
Why They can get a new car from their parents but I cnt?
Why their parents could support them to continue their studies but mine cnt?
Every time i thk bout this my tear will start drop.
I know i shouldn't blame to my parents,
but this world make me bcome realistic.
I wan a degree . Did u knw i want it so much??
I never tell anyone in my real life,coz it consider as a "dream"
The dream which impossible to come true.
I wish there are 70k for me to continue my studies and those living expenses.
I don't want to ask from my parents,coz i know they cant afford.
So i just keel quite and act like not interesting in studies.
What to do? I know they are suffer and lack of money since still got 2 sis nid to study.
I think I'm going crazy soon.
I dont know whats my target,Should I find a career and buy a car?
And give up my studies?>.<
I DON'T KNOW!!!!!!!
I never thought money problem will bother me
Cause I'm a happy go lucky person,keep think positive than every thing will be fine.
EXCEPT money problem!!!!!!!!!!
ARGH!
